🌙katsukistarr
🌑 VOID–ADJACENT(plural-adjacent • alterhuman-adjacent • nonclinical)A personal identity framework describing my shifting inner states, forms, and modes of self.
Not a diagnosis. Not DID/OSDD.
Just the way my brain organizes me.
Nothing here is a disorder or a symptom.
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I experience myself through a nonclinical identity model I call Void-Adjacent.
It means my core self (“Starr”) has several inner states or forms that reflect my emotions, creativity, and mild dissociative drift.These states are not different people.
They’re facets, modes, or flavors of me.
Some states appear to have formed intentionally, creatively, or through identity exploration. Some of them feel involuntary but do not appear to affect my life in a negative way
Possibly from neurodivergence or mild/little dissociationThese help me understand my inner world, track my shifts, and express myself more clearly.other terms that describe my experience a safe & nonclinical way:
median
part-based
🪐 Plural-AdjacentNot multiple people
Not a system
* But more than one “mode” living within one self
* All states are me, connected to the core “Starr”
* these just explain my personal experiences
This works for me because:- It gives me language for shifts I’ve felt for years
- It combines alterhuman, identity-fluid, and inner-state experiences
- It’s flexible and safe to use
- It doesn’t claim any diagnosis
- My therapist knows and supports this framework for me
Vanity
Vanity is an anthropomorphic white rabbit who was originally depicted as my Roblox character with a layered striped shirt, a skirt, and a mask with teary eyes on it. Vanity has been redesigned however internally its design doesn't reflect the redesign or most of the original. its new design feels anthropomorphic still, without the skirt and mask, but the teary face is the only thing that's left on its face.during one moment of distress, Vanity could be imagined in a field cradling a black and white bunny
Void-form
- detached/liminal self
- feels like an overlooker-observer
- not a voice, no separate opinions/thoughts
- quiet
- stillnessConnection to Starr : Makes me feel a growing attachment/comfortability with it/its pronouns & aroace feelings, Feels almost symbolic. like an emotional regulator almost, doesn't feel like a separate entity, doesn't speak, makes me feel small/nonhumannotes: Best explained with a "mode"/nonhuman figure called Vanity (originally a vent OC. seems to appear in states of emotional distress (feeling like Vanity is experiencing that feeling)- it feels like the embodiment of sadness, guilt, regret, self-hatred
- doesn't seem to interfere with daily life negatively
About Me!
pronouns: any except she/her
gender: Shiftvoid pangender
sexuality: Queerflux lesbian
age: minorblack ★ INFP ★ furry/alterhuman
★ neurodivergent ★ might switch between I/me and we/us occasionally or rarelyname hoard:
STARR, Katsuki (Kats, Katsu, Suki, or other variations of this name!), Crow, Rot, Kiri, Clown, Bunny, Pup/puppy, Amara, Bun, KAe, Coco, Aya,Andy, Ayu, Aerin, Somi, Ayan, Riot, Sparky, Appl, Ichee, Nia, Yina, Nin, Ray, Milo, Angel, June, Zai, Yare, Ria, Rin, Juniper
Starr-form
- central self (Core) (all other parts or modes branch off of/blend with this
- grounded-core identity
- baselineConnection to Starr : Trunk of a tree/core/basic personality, memories, preferences, creativity, passions, identity, etc. other states branch off of this. all other states feel 98% of me, while the other 2% represent the mood/feeling
primary identity - makes decisions, forms memories, lives daily life, etc
fluid identity/sexualityall other states are extensions of this, not separatepronouns page here!!
Alterhuman Layer
These are nonhuman'fictional identity connections that help me understand myself. I do not experience past lives, but feel emotional, symbolic, or instinctive connections.
Included in this layer:- Bunny copingkin (feels influenced by Vanity)
- Dogkin (otherkin) / canine energy
- Ockins / links
- Fictionlinks ( Denki, Kirishima, others)
- Fictionkins (Flutterbat, Vinyl Scratch, others)These connections may change with mood. they're also not separate, but still feel connected with my core identity
P E T S P A C E
comfort + sensory-regulation modePetspace is not separate from me. It's just a safe space for me that feels soft and animal-codedthese are both coping mechanisms I've been trying on my own for a year now. these are both strictly non-sexualsimple, soothing, nonverbal/low-verbal, emotion-focusedeven in this safe space, I am still control of my own body and can pull myself out of it when needed. it's more of a way to self-soothe and cope when I might find myself stressed/upset
"Bun" (may also feel influenced by Vanity)feeling: small, gentle, quiet, curled-up cozy
"Pup"
feeling: warm, comforting, cozy, playful
medias/fandoms I watch : mlp, FNAF, MLP, bandori, vocaloid, alien stage, acnh, welcome home, dead plate, TADC, TAWOG, ZZZ, car, inanimate insanity, into the spiderverse, steven universe, gravity falls, error143,sanrio, co9, ddlc, othersAnime shows (finished) mha, k-on, flowering heart, glitter force, erased, monthly girls' Niozaki-kun, Maid Sama, saiki K, your lie in April, forest piano, toradora, anohana; the flower we saw that day, OHSHC, the way of the househusband, Soul eater NOT, demon slayer (movies/watched; mha, demon slayer, a silent voice, a whisker away, moving home)Anime shows/manga(still watching/not finished): death note, soul eater, komi can't communicate, highrise invasion, hxh, kakegurui, yuri on ice, haikyuu, blue period, love is hard for Otaku, my lovesick life as a 90s Otaku, Kotaro lives alone, assasination classroom, tokyo ghoul, another, horimiya, dawn of the arcana,jjkAnime shows/manga(that I want to watch and/or read): angel beats, given, madoka magica, oshi no ko